as my hubby and i curl up on the couch sharing homemade pizza and watching our full TiVo, i can’t help but think this sort of of Sunday night tradition wouldn’t/won’t be possible if/when we have little tots running around. the thing is, i LOVE our Sunday nights together and i would/will miss them.
i know, i know, EVERYTHING changes once you have kids. i’m not an idiot and it irritates me when people say that to me. no shit. of course everything changes…a person grows inside of you and then relies on you for life. clearly life will change. of course, i guess it’s the same as me getting irritated when people pretend to understand what I’m dealing with when they never had a problem getting knocked up. so, i’ll step off my soapbox on this and call it a draw.
back to the topic at hand…the reality is that life changes with children. i am 100% willing to give up life as i know it, but i would be lying if i didn’t say that the longer it takes, the harder i think it will be and the more i second guess myself. it’s a lot like bachelors. they live alone and get so set in their bachelor (read: disgusting, somewhat selfish) ways. the longer they remain unattached, the harder it is them to transition to married life and all the changes that accompany (no– you can’t leave your dishes in the sink for 3 weeks, lay in bed all day and watch football/fart, never change your sheets, etc).
the thing is, we all get set in our ways. we continue to preserver for things (a child in our case) that we know will turn our lives upside down. we want it badly enough to accept that. but, there is still the little part you (me) that will miss how things use to be. it’s natural.
i want a child so badly (i’ll be more than happy with one, healthy baby — i can’t be selfish at this point and ask for more), but the longer this journey takes the harder i think it will be to give up some of the things that i have become so accustom to.
so, i’m starting a pro/con list for having children (or not). input from both sides — the fertile and infertile — is welcome. stay turned for the lists…