this weekend was wonderful. beautiful weather, beautiful friends (inside and out), beautiful food, beautiful scenery, beautiful relaxation.
my girlfriends and i went had a mini overnight getaway on a houseboat at a nearby lake. they all have children ranging from 3 months to 6 years, so they were ready for an evening away with the fathers in charge. i was just ready for a night away from reality of drugs, hormones, ivf, iui, obsessive thoughts, constant worry etc.
sometimes it’s nice to be around people who don’t fully understand this maddening process so i can try to put it aside and NOT talk about it. and, almost (almost) pretend it doesn’t exist. i guess that would be called acting “normal” which i definitely don’t feel very often. instead i let them bitch, vent, laugh, etc about their own kid issues and i just sort of forget my own worries (for a bit). in fact, sometimes it’s a bit frightening to hear their raw stories ranging from (sometimes) helpless/clueless husbands, biting, night terrors, day care, etc. no wonder they can power through 4 bottles of champagne, 2 bottles of wine and nearly handle of vodka over the course of a day! given the chance, they need the mental escape.
and i did/do too.
there is something so refreshing and rejuvenating about being on water. the lake/dock was nearly empty due to the time of year so we could literally hear the water hitting the shore. watching the sun set over the lake was just perfect. and enjoying soul-warming homemade sweet potato chili (i made it!) was the perfect complement to the therapeutic (and super fun) getaway.
after several weeks of ups and downs, this was just what i (we) needed. a day “away” from it all.
bliss. pure bliss.